It’s not how far you fall, but how high you bounce that counts.
- Zig Ziglar
The road to recovery is never an easy one. Anyone who has suffered any type of debilitating injury can attest to that. There are good days and there are bad days. There are ups and there are downs. For every day of progress it often times seems that there are two days of regression. Depression is common; frustration occurs daily. Common tasks become mountains to overcome, and some days you just don’t have the fight in you to keep climbing.
As you likely are aware, I suffered a collapsed lung a short time ago due to what I consider medical negligence. What I had hoped for in back pain relief I got double of in overall pain and discomfort. You put your trust in the medical professionals, and often times they let you down. But as the quote above says, it’s not about the fall, it’s about the way you bounce back.
Since getting home from the hospital, I have made a lot of progress. Each day I’m able to do a little more; each day I’m able to go a little further. My first walk after getting home I had trouble getting to the end of the block. Several days later I was able to push through a full mile (though I have to say I regretted that later). My first shower required a lot of patience and some assistance from my wife. I’m now able to handle showering and changing my bandages by myself. I cannot yet pick up my son, but I can follow him from room to room and even sit with him to sneak a gentle hug. I’m aiming for the beginning of September to start running again.
I don’t want you to think it has been all sunshine and roses though. I am still taking pain medication every 4-6 hours; and when I don’t, I definitely feel the pain. I still have to prop myself up with several pillows in bed at night because lying flat hurts. I continue to be frustrated that I cannot do more to help my wife who has been nothing but amazing to me during this time (and always). Almost every hour of each day I still am angry at the doctor who caused this, as well as at the fact that he will suffer no repercussions and will continue to go about his business as usual (not to say I didn’t let him know I felt in a kindly worded “thank you” note).
I simply have to remember the mantra that helped start this blog for me: Find the Reason. Find the Courage. Find the Strength. Each day will bring its challenges, but every night I am one step closer to full recovery and back on my way to greater achievements.